First Few Days

Wow. What a tiring few days these last few days have been. I have been strained emotionally and even a bit physically (3 flights of stairs every time I want to go to my room!!??!!). But I think that spiritually, I have been strengthened.
I had a really hard time this past summer with prayer. I tended to push it to the edge of my “to-do list” or forget about it all together. I noticed that as I did this I was more and more susceptible to getting irritated at little things and flying into fits of anger or some other radical emotion. Even as I would do those things I would hear this voice in the back of my head saying, “You know why this is happening. You are trying to shut God out, trying to do this on your own.” I would try to silence this voice. I don’t know why but I would. And then I would have another reason to not pray; because I did not want to confront the fact that I had not prayed before. The strangest thing about the whole experience, however, was that everything I was doing, right down to the very last detail, I knew was wrong, had learned in Bible classes that they were wrong and had even learned ways to counteract, etc. I think I had even written papers, answered questions, and written applications on the subject. I am well-learned and equipped to recognize and fight this attack of sinful flesh on my soul. But I am what I am and what that is is a young lady who positionally is perfect but in the here and now, is very fallen. Even head knowledge cannot save man from his sinful nature and without God, we will easily oblige sin’s tempting pleas.
Thankfully, oh so utterly thankfully (is that grammatically correct? I SHOULD know this… wanting to be an English major and all), God does not allow us to follows sin’s requests for long. Just like the Good Father that He is, He chastises us when we go astray and disciplines us so as to keep us from erring again. Just the very fact that He cares enough about me to bring me back into His fold and strengthen me. What a gracious Father!
Throughout my first few days here at WSU, I have found great joy in prayer and time spent in His word. It is honestly the highlight of my days and I wish that it would only become more so.
I am sure that Christ has many plans for me here at WSU, many of which include pushing me and challenging me. (I have signed up for a third semester Spanish class meaning that I am going into a class where only Spanish is to be spoken. I haven’t had a Spanish class since the junior year of high school. So this will be a class that I will truly have to work HARD in so as to get a good grade.) The home situation is also going to be an aspect that will help me grow. The update on my mom right now is that she is recovering from her first chemotherapy session and meets with the chemo doctor I believe today or tomorrow to schedule the second session. She will be needing somewhere between 3-7 chemo sessions which Jessica tells me is a rather small amount. Praise the Lord! Other than that, my mom is doing well. She is able to go on walks everyday which I find to be a good sign. Thank you all for your prayers.
I will do my best to keep this blog updated but I can’t make any promises as to how often I will post. Again, thank you all for your prayers!